The best is the enemy of the good. -Voltaire-

Updating the not updated...

Summer endowed me with experiences... with life... and well... still waiting for it...love.
Let's skip the adventurous misfortune I had the past couple months!
In short, spending nights in Airports, an old school Chinese train, money BADLY spent.

Well the good news are, I am going to AUC Egypt next year, and I am going to the water resource trip to China year end, I made the dean's list, and I am still alive.

Falling for someone isn't hard. But falling for someone that you know nothing would happen is slightly harder.

Falling... in general is not that hard, it's the aftermath-the coming back that is hard, but the hardest is probably the realization that another fall normally follows after you struggled so much to stand up again.

Anyway, life is funny when it allows emotions but no ideal ways for such emotions to express themselves.

It's like having the most bitter/sour candy in your mouth and can't spit it out because your lips are sealed.

I always prefer to say something I'll regret later than not say something that I'll regret not saying.

Short update.
Love.

Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans.

Updating my blog on my birthday eve is something special, well I'm technically 22 already in Malaysia.

Anyway, so what's going on with my life the past month?
Sophomore year officially ended. Love me classes and my grades officially pushed me to a cum laude. But what does that mean? that means unless I get all As and stayed in Lawrence and not go abroad, I will not reach a magna cum laude.

Hopefully I can go to Egypt next year.

So where am I for my birthday? I'm currently in Dartmouth University. One of the 8 Ivy league schools in the states. (For those who don't know what is an Ivy League, the league consists of 8 of the oldest and prestigious universities in the US, namely Harvard, Princeton, Yale, Columbia, Dartmouth, Brown, Cornell, and UPenn.)

Dartmouth is very beautiful, people here aren't as snobbish as I thought it would be. Dorms are a little...old I should say. But the nature and the green around the college are great. I went for a run with Sha Long, my new best friend in Dartmouth and discovered how nice is nature.

So what did I do for my birthday eve? I played beer pong (badly) in a frat house call tri-kap (kappa kappa kappa = kkk lol ) and discover a frat with lotsa asians is one of the most happening frat in school!! Then I had some beer and ice-cream and 5 different versions of birthday song sung by awesome group of friends from Chinese Language House. Let me recall, Mandarin, Spanish, Portugese, German, Japanese!

Thanks guys!! It was a cozy birthday with no cake but lotsa love.

*hugz Sijie, Long, Linda, Elva, Cacey, Zach?? hugz*

More drinking later?

Rough week in the past, rough life ahead.

In the States, it's lame to have a blog, but who cares anyway.
Those that read my blog will continue reading, those that don't will never start.

So what's the interesting topic this time? It's one week from summer break, and I have no fucking idea what to do by then...

Let me break down events since it has been long before I last updated.

1. School
2. Girls
3. Summer

Let's start with school. Last week probably had been the roughest (craziest) week in my academic career. I have 8 things due in the same week. 2 case studies, 1 book review, 1 investment analysis paper (27-pages), IPO assignment, Entrepreneurship presentation, Investment analysis presentation, Arabic aural test. ** I forgot I also have driving test that I failed miserably!!**

Also on Wednesday, I was wasted and witnessed the famous LU senior streak. (Yes, like in the movies) I had seen many of my senior friends naked by now, it's probably also the first time I saw more than 50 naked people running. (I saw it last year but it was approaching the end, this year I was down in the bar with them from the start!)

So I pulled off the week with extreme fatigue by Friday, and as usual drinking was involved.
Then, that connect to the second event. Girls.

This past month has been kinda weird in many aspect of girls. Of course the ongoing struggle of being a whore or a nice dude. But who cares...
But to protect victims or beneficiaries, I will use codes.

XXX had a boyfriend but broke up. We hung out a lot, things are chilling, I know what's up with her other life (not to be disclosed). But being the 'mature' guy, I said it's fine with whatever she does, it's her life and putting myself in her shoes, I'll do the same. However, it is always easier said than done. When I don't see her having her other life, I'm fine with it. It boils down to last night when I actually was there in the scene, it is actually sour. Like really sour and upsetting. So?? I go home, duh~

Ok no. I didn't go home, I went out and saw YYY. YYY was my previous crush (like first couple weeks of freshman year) that did what XXX did. I normally have no idea what she's thinking, cause I'm like an older brother that can hardly convince a younger sister not to do stupid things while I'm the guy that is fooling with other people's sister. Well at least I prevented YYY from falling into the same trap again. And YYY experienced one of the funniest story today.

So readers will think...I'm not with XXX, and not with YYY. I surely went home?
Nope. I called ZZZ and ask if I could go over, and of course I slept over there. **Note: Sleeping here is literal.** Funny thing is, ZZZ is a really close friend, and just like XXX before, has a boyfriend. There isn't much complication actually, the only thing is I know ZZZ's boyfriend personally. Does Bro Code apply here? I don't know.

Basically, I'm just juggling between XXX, YYY, ZZZ and at the same time eyeing options ABCDE...but it's the end of the year...nothing's gonna happen for long.

That moves on to the last point - Summer.
Summer seems blurrish to me. I was suppose to live with my friend, who is well off due to his investment strategy. So why issit still blurrish? Cause strategy may fail, and it did.
Now, we're just two struggling kids trying to get a living.

Should I go home? Should I just stay? Should I go see Sijie in Darthmouth? or go chill with XXX for a little while before she leaves for her next plan? or should I just....

Summer is blurrish.
I went through a rough week, but the life ahead...seems rougher...

cest la vie
Chee Chee

No more Sloppy~

So I'm back on track...at least for now.

My niece, little Yuet Ling came to the world on April Fool's day. I hope she'll enjoy her stay.

I was a little shocked by myself last week. I woke up and found that I'm not interested in most things I'm interested in!
(ie. in this case, 烟酒嫖赌, which translate to smoking, alcohol, women and gambling)

Fortunately, it was just a small change to how I shall perceive them.
I still like to indulge in them. I'll smoke sheesha now and then, gamble with my brain in my investments, but will stop getting drunk 3-4 times a week, and women... I'll leave that natural.

Somehow, I start reading and preparing for class beforehand. Entrepreneurship class has my interest now, it's been a while since I have educational passion~ I start dreaming of going to great schools again. (Yes, Sloan, HBS, Wharton, Oxford)

This term, I'm taking Intermediate Arabic, Entrepreneurship and Financial Markets, and Investment Analysis. I have classes everyday, but only one class on Mondays, Tuesdays, Fridays, and two on Wednesdays and Thursdays.

Basically, I'm taking the business path of my education. So much of liberal arts education but I did have many interesting classes like Transgender lives and Innovation and of course Arabic is the highlight.

I need to apply to American University in Cairo for Spring Semester next year and need to find someway to finance it. As usual, applications are troublesome and annoying. Plus I need to find any internships if possible during summer. Hmmmppphhh...

Well, my priorities are pretty clear now. ~Life~
haha, which includes all vices and luxuries and interests.

Cest la vie~

till then,
Chee chee

My heart still beats.

Weirdly enough, my heart still beats faster sometimes.
After all, my heart is warm.

It's easy not to think about it and take it really easy. However, I just feel like thinking bout it out of curiosity.
I really want to understand them sometimes.
But again, that's against my principle of "women are not to be understood, but only to be loved".

It's weird, I thought I was cool and playful, but I don't know how to react now, I'm just cautious nowadays.

Random shot from a glass of water and sunlight, I find it very amazing.

Despite whatever that's happening, my heart still beats faster when she's around, and I can't help it. = S